Loving Jesus…

Loving Jesus…

“I’ve reached a point in my life where I wonder, how did I live any part of my life not caring to know Christ intimately?…

I had quite the encounter with Jesus some years back. I went on a retreat out of desperation for a sort of “healing” after my dad died. I was in a rough spot mentally and emotionally. On this retreat, I had the opportunity to sit in front of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament. This was the first time I was exposed to Eucharistic Adoration. My group leader knew I had a lot happening internally and simply asked me to speak to Him [Jesus] as if no one was around. It was then that I realized how angry I was about my dad dying. 

Through my tears and pain, I let everything out. I told Him how I felt abandoned and betrayed. I told Him how I didn’t feel like I could come into a friendship with Him after what He did to me. As if Jesus deliberately took my dad away to cause me this kind of suffering. It was after that release of everything I was holding inside that a sense of peace came over me like never before. It was at that moment that I knew that God was with me all along, to comfort me, hold me, reassure me that He was and will be always with me. 

It’s been nearly 10 years since that encounter and I have never been happier to serve Him in the capacity that I do. And even with as much as I think I do for Christ and His Church, I know I can serve Him more, serve Him better. He has shown me a kind of love that I’ve never gotten from any one person on earth; and believe me, I know I’m loved by the people I surround myself with. From then I constantly try to be a good Catholic and a good example to those around me. I truly try to live a life that is pleasing to God and though I fall, I get right back up and continue on! He has shown me Himself through those around me and has shown me how to reveal Him to others around me. 

I’ve come to a realization that in those years that I didn’t know Jesus, I mean, truly know him, that I was at a huge loss. I try not to dwell on that considering I learned a lot in those years that lead to me to where I am now. 

I really am in love with Jesus. He is the best part of me.”


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